I've got to laugh. by ABeautifulLie-93, literature
Literature
I've got to laugh.
I've got to laugh, I'm sorry, I do.
The wine, the alcohol,
The love, the hate,
The smiles, the frowns,
Who are we,
Why are we here,
We have a purpose,
On we need to share.
The pain that tears us apart,
is the pain that reunites.
The relief of the pain,
Is the hearts desire,
and the hearts desire,
is the pain.
This cycle is unbreakable,
It's programmed to be untouchable,
It's never going to go away,
The pain will always stay.
How?
You can't fight yourself,
No matter how hard you try.
A year ago, I promised myself something,
I promised myself not to get too attached,
Not to fall in love again...
Because of him
But I have again,
Because of her...
She's showed me that I can trust,
That I can get close to someone again.
Still, there's the little voice,
In the back of my head,
That still voices the doubts,
Still hurts me,
Still brings up memories and conversations,
From the past that needs to stay in the past.
These things... haunting me keep my guard up...
24/7,
All day,
All night.
Still, she has saved me
I guess this is what love is
This is the only time I am happy that I broke me promise.
A lot c
Confusion,
What to do?
Pain,
Terror,
Confusing me,
Pushing me away,
Making way for a monster,
Me?
Not me.
Yes. Me.
Need help,
No where to turn,
Nowhere to run,
Drowning,
Falling.
Go to sleep.
STAY asleep.
Tired,
Pain,
Terror,
Blood,
Nothing left,
Scared.
Empty.
When you look at me,
do you see me?
When you listen to me,
do you hear me?
I could stand on stage,
and not be seen.
I could scream out,
and not be heard.
What do you do,
when the path you are on,
leads you astray?
What do you do?
I wish things would change,
I wish this would end.
I wonder what it's like to be free
Free like a bird,
Free from all this pain,
All these thoughts,
I just want to be free.
Free to live my life how I want
Without anyone breathing down my neck.
Checking what I do, how I do.
I still wonder it's like to be free.
Maybe one day,
I'll be free like a bird.
Once again I can't help.
Always the same,
Always being useless,
Always alone,
Always jealous,
Always paranoid,
Always selfish.
Never in control,
Never coping,
Never 100% happy,
Never good enough,
Never normal.
What can I do?
I want to make you happy,
Take away all your pain,
make you happy again.
I would if I could.
You know I would.
I'm sorry.
I know I'm not perfect.
I wish I could be for you.
I need you.
But I think, you need me more,
You just wont admit it.
You're too proud for that.
Let me help.
Please?
Me helping you,
Will help me.
I love you.
You are my world.
I've got to laugh. by ABeautifulLie-93, literature
Literature
I've got to laugh.
I've got to laugh, I'm sorry, I do.
The wine, the alcohol,
The love, the hate,
The smiles, the frowns,
Who are we,
Why are we here,
We have a purpose,
On we need to share.
The pain that tears us apart,
is the pain that reunites.
The relief of the pain,
Is the hearts desire,
and the hearts desire,
is the pain.
This cycle is unbreakable,
It's programmed to be untouchable,
It's never going to go away,
The pain will always stay.
How?
You can't fight yourself,
No matter how hard you try.
A year ago, I promised myself something,
I promised myself not to get too attached,
Not to fall in love again...
Because of him
But I have again,
Because of her...
She's showed me that I can trust,
That I can get close to someone again.
Still, there's the little voice,
In the back of my head,
That still voices the doubts,
Still hurts me,
Still brings up memories and conversations,
From the past that needs to stay in the past.
These things... haunting me keep my guard up...
24/7,
All day,
All night.
Still, she has saved me
I guess this is what love is
This is the only time I am happy that I broke me promise.
A lot c
Confusion,
What to do?
Pain,
Terror,
Confusing me,
Pushing me away,
Making way for a monster,
Me?
Not me.
Yes. Me.
Need help,
No where to turn,
Nowhere to run,
Drowning,
Falling.
Go to sleep.
STAY asleep.
Tired,
Pain,
Terror,
Blood,
Nothing left,
Scared.
Empty.
When you look at me,
do you see me?
When you listen to me,
do you hear me?
I could stand on stage,
and not be seen.
I could scream out,
and not be heard.
What do you do,
when the path you are on,
leads you astray?
What do you do?
I wish things would change,
I wish this would end.
I wonder what it's like to be free
Free like a bird,
Free from all this pain,
All these thoughts,
I just want to be free.
Free to live my life how I want
Without anyone breathing down my neck.
Checking what I do, how I do.
I still wonder it's like to be free.
Maybe one day,
I'll be free like a bird.
Well, once again it's been a Since till updated anything on here but since I've found an app that allows me to upload images from my tablet, l Will be alot more active on here : ) maybe .... haha.
Well, it's been well over a year since I've last updated this journal... Sorry!
I can't believe how much has happened over this last year, I broke up with my boyfriend, and "came out of the closet" so to speak and got with my girlfriend.
College wise, finished AS Levels and gone onto Mechanical Engineering Level 3 (it's sooooooooo much fun... >_> ) Really need to figure out what career I'm going to do, and soon before I'm middled aged and still not got a clue what to do.
Uhm... yeah, only updating this because the girlfriend was moaning at me!
Yeahhhhh, update it again soon! In theory anyway!
So, since I last updated my journal, I've been to the Taste Of Chaos Tour... Which was absolutely amazing!
Halestorm - weren't actually that bad to be fair.
Buckcherry - to be honest. They weren't that good. A bit of a let down, if you ask me.
Papa Roach - lets just say that they were as awesome as ever! And they have a new fan... ;)
Disturbed - weren't that bad either, but, they didn't quite reach Papa Roach's lever ;D
Personal opinion ;)
I also made a new friend at the gig :)
Apart from that... not a great deal has happened...
Christmas was average... Gorgeous Christmas dinner as usual, and New Year's Eve... Quiet night in with the
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